Because of His Love 因愛之名
Because of His Love 因愛之名
◎ Susan Fiedler
Job was not a brilliant man. He swept floors for a living. He believed that Tarzan was a real man, and that all those movies were really documentaries of Tarzan’s life. He was the butt of many jokes, yet he taught me about the essence of a “real man”: love and respect for women, honor, kindness and gentleness.
喬布并不是個(gè)聰明的人，他以打掃樓道為生。他相信在現(xiàn)實(shí)生活中，泰山是真實(shí)存在的，所有的那些電影都是泰山生活的真實(shí)記錄片。他是大家取笑的對(duì)象，然而，他教會(huì)了我“真正的人”應(yīng)有的品質(zhì)：愛護(hù)與尊重女性、榮譽(yù)、善良和親切。
Job embraced life in unexpected, simple ways. He showed up for work, on time. He never bragged about himself, and he loved only one woman—his wife, Molly. Job filled a void in my life. He was principled and straightforward in my world of dishonor and lies. He loved me as his very own grandchild, even though he was a year younger than my father.
喬布用出人意料的簡(jiǎn)單方式擁抱生活。他工作準(zhǔn)時(shí)，從不吹噓自己，而且只愛一個(gè)女人——他的妻子莫莉。喬布填補(bǔ)了我生命中的空白。在我那滿布謊言和恥辱的世界里，他是如此有原則和正直。他像愛自己的孫女一樣愛我，盡管他比我父親還小一歲。
I will never forget my graduation from high school. That was a day of hopeless inevitability for me. My father, who was a heavy drinker, began his celebration very early in the day. By the time we congregated in the high school gymnasium, my father had congratulated himself through nearly a case of beer.
我永遠(yuǎn)也不會(huì)忘記高中畢業(yè)時(shí)的情形。那天對(duì)我來說本是注定讓人絕望的。我的酒鬼父親，那天一大早就開始自己狂歡了。當(dāng)我們?cè)趯W(xué)校體育館集中慶祝時(shí)，他已浸在幾乎一箱啤酒里自己作樂了。
I tried to be invisible within a sea of faces. I wanted to run away. Disappear. Most of all I wanted no one to guess whose kid I was. I was betrayed by my last name, which began with the letter “A”, so I was the first graduate on the first row. Being a red-head gave me even more exposure, and the baccalaureate speaker, who had never met me, decided to use me as his audio-visual aid.
我盡力讓自己淹沒在人山人海里。我很想要離家出走，我想消失。我最希望的，就是沒人知道我是誰的孩子。可我的姓氏出賣了我。我姓氏的首字母是“A”，因此我是第一排的第一個(gè)畢業(yè)生。滿頭的紅發(fā)讓我更加顯眼，而那個(gè)與我從未謀面的畢業(yè)致辭者，決定把我當(dāng)做輔助他“教學(xué)的工具”。
“This young lady, this bright young lady, with the bright red hair.” His voice rolled through the auditorium in sonorous phrases, as I sank lower in my seat. Over to my left, at the door of the auditorium, was a seating arrangement for the “elderly”. And there sat Molly, age 61, and Job, age 47, with all of the grandparents. My heart ached when I looked at them, wishing with all my heart that I were, truly, their grandchild.
“這位小姐，這位長(zhǎng)著一頭亮麗紅發(fā)的漂亮女士。”他言辭夸張，洪亮的聲音在禮堂里盤旋回響，而座位上的我縮得更低了。我左邊的禮堂門口處，是給“長(zhǎng)者”安排的座位區(qū)。61歲的莫莉和47歲的喬布，跟其他人的祖父母?jìng)兌甲谀莾?。我望著他們，心如刀割。我多么希望我真是他們的孫女。
As the speaker continued with his speech, he reached a point where he had an uncontrollable urge to introduce “all the wonderful people, who have made this day possible!”
發(fā)言者繼續(xù)著他的演講，說到點(diǎn)子上時(shí)，他按捺不住內(nèi)心的激動(dòng)，要介紹“所有成就了今天畢業(yè)禮的了不起的人！”
“All the siblings of the graduates, please, stand.” I slipped lower in my seat, glancing hurriedly around, hoping to remain invisible.
“所有即將畢業(yè)的同學(xué)，請(qǐng)起立。”我靠在座位上，身子藏得更低了，眼睛快速地向周圍掃視了一下，但愿沒人看得見我。
“Now, all the parents, please stand.” Dear Lord, I thought, I’m sure my father can’t stand, even if he wanted to. I didn’t bother to look around.
“現(xiàn)在，所有的父母，請(qǐng)起立。”天啊，我暗地里想，我敢肯定，即使我父親想站，他也站不起來了。我甚至看都不用看了。
“Now the grandparents” I closed my eyes, dreading the hopelessness of my situation. I had no grandparent to stand proudly for me. I finally opened my eyes, and there they were Job and Molly, standing proudly with all the other grandparents. Job looked over at me, his eyes beaming like diamonds.
“現(xiàn)在，祖父母?jìng)?hellip;…”我閉上眼睛，處境讓我不堪設(shè)想。沒有祖父母會(huì)為我自豪地站起來。我最后睜開了眼睛，他們站起來了——喬布和莫莉，他們跟所有的祖父母一起自豪地站起來了。喬布看著我，眼睛里閃爍著鉆石般的光芒。
“I’m so proud of you.” he smiled as he mouthed the words that I will never forget. I knew that he stood there, not out of duty, but because of his love for me!
“我真為你感到驕傲。”他做著口形說道，說的時(shí)候面帶笑容，而我將永遠(yuǎn)也不會(huì)忘記這些話。我知道，他站起來并不是出于責(zé)任，而是因?yàn)樗麑?duì)我的愛！
