我變得十分嚴(yán)肅,只是為了隱藏內(nèi)心的傷痛

I didn’t grow up in a very loving family.

我不是在溫暖的家庭里長(zhǎng)大的孩子

In fact,

事實(shí)上

there are few, if any, happy memories I have of my childhood involving my family members.

在我童年的記憶中，有家人在場(chǎng)的歡樂(lè)記憶少之又少，幾乎沒(méi)有

My happiest moments were spent with the few friends

我最快樂(lè)的時(shí)光是與少數(shù)幾個(gè)朋友一起度過(guò)的

I was allowed to have.

他們是我被允許擁有的僅有的伙伴

My family eventually alienated all the neighbors,

但最終，我的家人把所有的鄰居都排斥開(kāi)了

so the time came

這時(shí)

when I didn’t even have neighborhood kids to play with.

我甚至找不到一個(gè)鄰里間的玩伴一同玩耍

This was the time before internet.

這是互聯(lián)網(wǎng)誕生之前

So, I learned to occupy my time

于是，我學(xué)著用各種方式填滿自己的時(shí)間

reading,

閱讀

discovering nature

探索大自然

and setting and achieving small goals for myself.

給自己訂立小目標(biāo)并實(shí)現(xiàn)它們

I became quite serious,

我變得十分嚴(yán)肅

just to hide my pain.

其實(shí)只是為了隱藏內(nèi)心的傷痛

There was another family in town that,

城里有另一戶人家

on paper was quite similar to mine.

從表面上看和我們家十分相似

They had a lot of children,

他們有許多孩子

aged spaced apart like my own family.

與我家一樣，孩子之間的年齡差距很大

I always wondered

我總會(huì)想

what it would be like if my family were more like them.

如果我們家與他們家更相似一點(diǎn)，會(huì)是什么樣子

They never knew it,

他們從未知道我的心思

but I watched them

我卻觀察著他們

and admired them.

傾慕他們

They were kind,

他們都很善良

genuine and close

真誠(chéng)，彼此親密

– everything I wished my family could be.

這些都是我希望自己家擁有的特質(zhì)

Decades later

數(shù)十年后

I found myself back at that very same place,

我發(fā)現(xiàn)自己會(huì)到了同樣的地方

in that same small town I had left behind.

回到自己拋棄的同一個(gè)小城鎮(zhèn)

This time I was in that town for a funeral.

這一次，我是去參加葬禮

It was my mother’s funeral.

那是我母親的葬禮

My family bickered and was divided,

一家人吵吵鬧鬧，各自出走

as always.

正如一直以來(lái)的那樣

I felt saddened that

我感到悲傷，因?yàn)?/p>

neither time nor circumstance

無(wú)論時(shí)間或場(chǎng)合

could make them act with loving kindness toward each other.

都不能讓這家人用愛(ài)意和善意對(duì)待彼此

As I approached the church for the funeral,

我到教堂出席葬禮

memories came flooding back to me.

回憶如洪水般涌來(lái)

I remembered the warm, kind smiles of that family

我想起另外那家人溫暖，善良的微笑

that used to sit in the front pews of the church

他們總是坐在教堂前幾排的位置

when I was a child.

那時(shí)我還是個(gè)孩子

I wondered if those parents had too passed.

我心想，那家的雙親是不是也過(guò)世了呢

After the funeral service

葬禮結(jié)束后

a meal was provided in the church basement.

教堂地下室里提供了一場(chǎng)喪宴

After getting a plate of food

我拿了一盤(pán)食物

I scanned the room for a seat with my husband.

我與丈夫一起在房間里搜索座位

Then I heard a familiar voice

這時(shí)我聽(tīng)到一個(gè)熟悉的聲音

I hadn’t heard in decades

我已經(jīng)數(shù)十年未曾聽(tīng)過(guò)

call my name.

喊著我的名字

I turned around

我轉(zhuǎn)過(guò)身去

and he was there,

他就在那里

the father of that family I had admired when I was young.

是我小時(shí)候傾慕的那家人的父親

He was a church volunteer for my mother’s funeral lunch.

她在母親的喪宴上，自愿擔(dān)當(dāng)教堂里的志愿者

We chatted for a bit.

我們交談了一會(huì)兒

I pointed out my happy child to him

我指給他看我那個(gè)興高采烈的兒子

and it was at that point I realized

那一刻我忽然意識(shí)到

I was raising my boy

我教育兒子的方式

in a way I had seen him raise his own children so long ago.

與多年前我看到他教育自己孩子的方式同出一轍

He didn’t realize it,

他沒(méi)有意識(shí)到這一點(diǎn)

but my son’s life has been greatly affected by him.

可是，我兒子的生活其實(shí)深受他的影響

Peace settled into my soul.

安寧終于住進(jìn)我的心

Live your life with integrity .

真誠(chéng)善良的度過(guò)一生吧

You never know who’s watching,

你不會(huì)知道誰(shuí)在看著你

who you will inspire

誰(shuí)會(huì)受到你的啟迪

and whose life you'll change.

你會(huì)改變他們的一生